So fall with me to the open water

is eight years old, she’s got pink cheeks that her grandmother calls chubby. She wants a second cookie but her aunt says “you’ll get huge if you keep eating.” She wants a dress and the woman in the changing room says “she’ll probably need a large in that.” She wants to have dessert and her waiter says “After all that dinner you just had? You must be really hungry!” and her parents laugh.

is eleven and she is picked second-to-last in gym class. She watches a cartoon and sees that everyone who is annoying is drawn with a big wide body, all sweaty and panting. At night she dreams she is swelling like the ocean over seabeds. When she wakes up, she skips school.

is thirteen and her friends are stick-thin ballerinas with valleys between their hipbones. She is instead developing the wide curves of her mother. She says she is thick but her friends argue that she’s “muscular” and for some reason this hurts worse than just admitting that she jiggles when she walks and she’ll never be a dancer. Eating seconds of anything feels like she’s breaking some unspoken rule. The word “indulgent” starts to go along with “food.”

is fourteen and she has stopped drinking soda and juice because they bloat you. She always takes the stairs. She fidgets when she has to sit still. Whenever she goes out for ice cream, she leaves half at the bottom - but someone else always leaves more and she feels like she’s falling. She pretends to like salad more than she does. She feels eyes burrowing through her body while she eats lunch. Kate Moss tells her nothing tastes as good as skinny feels, but she just feels like she is wilting.

is fifteen the first time her father says “you’re getting gaunt.” She rolls her eyes. She eats one meal a day but thinks she stays the same size. Every time she picks up a brownie she thinks of the people she sees on t.v. and every time she has cake, she thinks of the one million magazine articles on restricting calories. She used to have no idea a flat stomach was supposed to be beautiful until she saw advice on how to achieve it. She cuts back on everything. She controls. They tell her she’s getting too thin but she doesn’t believe it.

is sixteen and tearing herself into shreds in order for a thigh gap big enough to hush the screams in her head. She doesn’t “indulge,” ever. She can’t go out with friends, they expect her to eat. She damns her sweet tooth directly to hell. It’s coffee for breakfast and tea for lunch and if there’s dance that evening, two cups of water and then maybe an apple. She lies all the time until she thinks the words will rot her teeth. She dreams about food when she sleeps. Her aunt begs her to eat anything, even just a small cookie. They say, “One bite won’t make you fat, will it, darling?”

is seventeen and too sick to go to prom because she can’t stand up for very long. She thinks she wouldn’t look good in a dress anyway. Her nails are blue and not because they are painted. Her hair is too thin to do anything with. She’s tired all the time and always distracted. She once absently mentions the caloric value of grapes to the boy she is with and he looks at her like she’s gone insane and in that moment she realizes most people don’t have numbers constantly scrolling in their heads. She swallows hard and tries to figure out where it all went wrong, why more than a granola bar for a meal makes her feel sick, why she tastes disease and courts with death. She misses sleep. She misses being able to dream. She misses being herself instead of just being empty.

is twenty and writes poetry and is a healthy weight and still fights down the voices every single day. She puts food in her mouth and sometimes cries about it but more and more often feels good, feels balanced. Her cheeks are pink and they are chubby and soft and no longer growing slight fur. Her hair is long and it is beautiful. She still picks herself apart in the mirror, but she’s starting to get better about it. She wears the dress she likes even if it only fits her in a large and she doesn’t feel like a failure for it. She is falling in love with the fat on her hips.

She is eating out with friends and not worrying about finding the lowest calorie item on the menu when she hears a mother tell her four year old daughter “You can’t have ice cream, we just had dinner.
You don’t want to end up as a fat little girl.”

Why do we constantly do this to our children? /// r.i.d (via inkskinned)

This is heartbreaking

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WHY CANT THIS FANDOM JUST GET ALONG WITH EACH OTHER especially maddie and chloe fans. There’s too much pointless fighting and “trying to show who’s the best” type of thing. Let’s just be nice to each other and love all of the girls. Peace. Bye.

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The person I reblogged this from has a quality blog and I recommend you all follow them

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littleocdancers: It'll be appreciated, if, all of them, there are nice and subtle maddie fans, but there are those you just want to rip their heads off!!! I'd rather not name the people who fit into the last part, but to you who do you want to slay first and drop into the sewer???



That’s hard, I lost track of all the Maddie stans TBH!

My small list of stans:

  • maddienicoleisgod (holy shit she pisses me off)
  • maddies-quietvoices (anyone else think this URL makes Maddie sound crazy?)
  • maddie-and-kendall (literally we all know she posted that thing about realisticdancemoms on the confession blog and she still tries to deny it lol)
  • twerking-brookehyland (gross ass URL sorry not so sorry)
  • onlymnz (troll I think, but still)
  • mackktothekatackkk (who the fuck would choose this URL)
  • maddieshappiness (bitchy af)
  • ziegler-maddie (no explanation needed)
  • two-sapphires (annoying af)
  • mistletoesmaddie (I heard she likes the janoskians (sorry janoskian stans), so that says a lot, and she’s just annoying as hell)
  • maddieandchlo (don’t let her URL fool you, she hates Chloe with a passion)
  • abbyleenicoleziegler2 (yes this bitch is back)

And that’s all I can think of, but I’m probably missing around 40 or so….

Have patience Emmy, I have to slay all those people PLUS 40 or so!

But I can do it, I assure you, just give me a few months!


I hope none of those stans follow me lol

i was going through ‘maddie fans’ tag to see what bullshit comes up and ive stumbled upon this lovely post and i was just wondering what constitutes a stan to you?

Because i can sure vouch for alexis, maddiehappiness,two-saphires, and ziegler-maddie, that they do not put down others just to make maddie look good or insult the other girls, and neither do i so im pretty sure youre just calling us stans because you dont like our opinions and us and our urls?

(and dont worry why would we follow someone like you)


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if you dont have me on facebook you are probably not missing out on any posts but the comment section is important too lmao

I went to the Renaissance faire dressed as a warrior.  I had a real sword with me, too.  I was standing (in character) next to a sword-fighting ring, where kids of all ages got the chance to pick up a sword and challenge the champion.  Some woman walks by, with her little girl.  The girl starts walking towards the ring, saying she wants to fight.  But the mom pulled her away hella sharply, and was like, “That’s for boys.”  You don’t want to be a BOY, do you?”    And the girl looked around and saw me.  I think she thought I was a boy; I had my hair in a ponytail, and was wearing a hood.  So she comes up to me and asks me, “Do you think girls can be fighters, too?”  And her mom looks like she’s silently gloating.  Like she thinks I’m going to say no.  So I take off my hood, untie my hair so that it flows freely, and kneel before her.  And I’m like, “Milady, anyone can be a fighter.”  I swear, the look on that mother’s face made my day.


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Make me Choose→ Chloe or Brooke/Nia

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Make me Choose: anonymous asked Peyton Heitz or Maddie Ziegler?

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Dance Moms Challenge:

 Favourite Dancer - Madison Nicole Ziegler

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